Having to consider my career and working hours

Since early this year my health has been very up and down and more down than up infact pretty much always sort of downward.

Its for various reasons but im now having to consider my future, my current career and my current working hours.

Im not be over dramatic or drastic on this one, im taking my time on deciding my future and my options

The idea is if possible to reduce my work hours to be able to use the spare time to concentrate on getting fit and resting up more to give my body the best chance of improving fending off illness and rebuilding.

Im very unfit at present and rebuilding from losing too much weight and being poorly for far too long and have a plan that I will try to get fit over the next few months then try to keep that fitness and good health over the winter.

The problem is to do with work, not because they are nasty to me or because they treat me badly.

Its simple my body wont let me work 8-10 hours a day, then do daily duties and keep fit and enjoy my life. Physically I cannot do it and because of that I feel lazy. Its not 100% my fault im just getting older and with my illness my body cant cope with it like it used to. I should give up work get rest rebuild and enjoy what I have and I will be doing that at some point

when I was 18 - 21 years old I could work 12 hour days go out and see friends or go out drinking get a few hours sleep and then go back to work the next morning or out and about.

But because my fitness is so low and my staminar isnt as good as it used to be and im getting older and my cf has got worse Its just simply impossible for me to do that anymore.

If im to live longer and fight off cf and stay healthy I need more rest, generally by 8pm most days I want to go to bed sleep, my aim is to get if possible 8-10 hours sleep as I think thats what i need. In actual fact im getting 6-7 hours sleep which is fine for most people but for me its just not enough for my body to recover from the days activities and be ready for the next days activities after 3-4 days of my normal routine im exhausted and sometimes I just cannot get up for work and im very lucky that work is so understanding and I am able to work from home which is great as it gives me a chance to rest and recoup

I know this could be happening at the moment as im too ill at the moment and im rebuilding from a tough 10 months but I dont like it. I love work and my job and am finding it hard to consider working less hours and even worse to think I may have to give up work all together.

I have set myself 6 months to see if I can improve and rebuild whilst still working how I am now. I am positive that I can gain weight and fitness and improve myself to live how I used to, but if after 6 months if hasnt worked and the doctors say look lets talk I will have to be harsh and admit not defeat but that I just need to concentrate less on work and more on myself. It will be hard to do that I have loved working full time in the job im in for the last 10 years and would miss the buzz and fun I have doing my job and working with amazing people and seeing some things that others dont get to see but health comes first and I have to make sure im as healthy as possible if im going to live longer and enjoy the most important things in life and I intend to be around a long time to enjoy those things I can live without work but I cannot live without them

As I was once told we do not live just to work but to live and enjoy the life we were given. Work is just a tool but not a necessity and we can all live without it but we cannot live without our health its physically impossible and you dont need doctors to tell you that

So heres to the next 6 months of hope and improvement.

If not its less work and more rest and health. Come to think of it that doesnt sound that bad does it??!!