So since my last blog a few interesting things have happened
I have been fighting a bad chest for about 2 months and despite managing being able to keep my lung function up it was really starting to take its toll on me.
I was becoming very exhausted and most of my daily effort was purely going into keeping my chest as good as I could.
Well two weeks ago I spoke with my doctors and it was decided that it would be best to get some help and go in for ivs before things got worse.
So I was admitted into hospital for IV treatment.
I had my midline put in which went nice and simply and it was agreed to start me on timentin and tobramyzin and it was planned to do a week in and then continue my ivs from home
Well all went well in hospital for the first few days until something went wrong with my line and it started to bleed massively (and I still can't figure out why)
"Okay so no problem lets just clean it up and put on a new bandage and carry on" I thought
But no how dare I think things could go so simple.
When it was being cleaned up the nurse seemed to panic and pulled my line out a little despite me saying to her numerous times "watch out for this your pulling the bandage too quick and the lines moving" and instead of just trying to place it back in she seemed to refuse and said she would have to remove it and I would need a new line and then tried to lie about why it came out.
Don't get me wrong i know mistakes happen and they do an amazing job and a simple apology would of been fine but I don't like being lied to and I was rather upset and angry that the line had been removed and couldn't understand why they couldn't just be honest and say sorry my mistake I pulled the line too far out
And it didn't help this all happen at 1am and I was rather tired and then was told I needed to stay up to have a cannula put in gggggrrrrrrrrrrr
Well that happened eventually at 3am and don't get me started on the cannula but after 3 attempts I successfully had a cannula in.
Line removed after mistake and cannula put in which you can see in background
So after a tense weekend of having a cannula in I had a new line inserted into my right arm on the Monday but it wasn't a great fit and it was discussed to leave it in and see how we get on and if it failed to put another line back in where the first one was. No problems always good to have a back up plan.
Anyway I should explain what my lung function was when I went in
On the Wednesday when I was admitted my lung function was 2.4 fev1 so it hadn't dropped too much from march when it was 2.6 fev1 but that doesn't explain the full extent of how ill I was
It was mentioned that I had clearly been working very hard to fend off whatever I had but it was time to give me that final push to clear it
And physically and most certainly mentally I have been feeling beat up I have been struggling mentally with cf
I just feel lately mentally I've been down, depressed maybe but I just haven't been right in the head and just felt like things were getting on top of me
I have been needing a boost lately to help me carry on and maybe change my approach to things and give me a game changer if you will
Well the week in hospital went well and other than the midline issue no major shocks just lots of drugs even more sleep and when I wasn't sleeping lots of autogenic drainage breathing exercises
I never really knew how exhausted I had become but the amount of tiredness I had been feeling and sleeping certainly showed me I need to rest more and start sleeping better as I was simply just dozing off at all hours of the day when I'm not being pestered for obs or drugs or blood tests.
Well they let me home after a week in and all seemed okay but after a few days home my second line failed and was leaking heavily so it was an emergency journey to the hospital to have my third line put in so plus the cannula had had a total of 4 drugs lines installed
Well again the first week at home has gone well and no major issues my plan at home was simple
Sleep plenty
Plenty of drugs
Plenty of nebulisers
Plenty of tablets
And plenty of exercise when I wasn't doing anything else
Well my main exercise was dog walking as my new puppy mollie certainly can help me to keep fit and we have walked quite a few miles which has really helped me expand my chest and help my AD exercise to clear my chest of phlegm
My cf nurse visited to see how I have been getting on and I was expecting the results to be the same as when I left hospital
When I left my results had showed no improvement on my lung function so I was feeling a little down
But yesterday's results shocked me massively
I was in that much shock I actually text my cf team to check what I had read was right
Let me put it this way
Admitted in hospital two weeks ago fev1 2.46
Visit yesterday
Fev1 2.95
I couldn't believe it and I still can't that is the second highest fev1 I've ever had in the last ten years maybe even my entire life and I haven't had a fev1 over 2.8 for nearly 7 YEARS
So you can imagine my shock at the results
And I'm still in shock now I don't really know what to say
All I know for sure is I had given up on improving my lung function and thought I was just working to keep it where I was and felt like I was working harder than ever just to stay healthy
What I do want to say is I stupidly thought I should give up on ever improving my health again and just work to stay as i was but the results show you should never give up until your very last effort has run dry.
I have upped everything lately thinking that was what I had to do just to keep where I was but upping everything and working harder
I work harder now on my health Than I ever have and it just shows I should never have given up thinking otherwise
I has given me a huge boost and I actually feel like I could now improve further
Isn't it funny even just this time last week I was thinking lets just work on keeping well and still feeling bad but now I have something to feel good about and will now work harder to see if there's anymore room for improvement
I still feel bad mentally but these results give me something to believe in and something to work with
This is the game changer I mentioned that I needed and it has come at just the right time
Importantly it has shown me to never give up never stop believing and never stop thinking you can improve
Never ignore the signs that things can change if you work hard enough and I've certainly upped my game despite being in a bad place mentally and I'm glad that although mentally I was down physically I think I never stopped trying and it's really paid off judging by my results
A lot of people have asked me how did I do it and what have I changed to be able to improve my health???
well here's my answer
All I simply did was get in early for treatment before my chest infection got too bad and its the first time I've ever done that and I really believe that is a major factor for me being able to improve
I used to wait till I was really ill before admitting I needed help and went in for ivs but this time I felt like it was time to change my plan of attack and I'm told attack is the best form of defence
So anyone who is thinking of leaving treatment to the last minute, DON'T
Get in before it gets too bad and attack it early and then work to improve it
I have certainly learnt a big lesson in doing that and I hope my results show that sometimes changing what you do can make a huge difference
I'm hoping it helps others to realise things can get better if you just change the way you go about things
I'm still in shock but I'm hoping it sets in soon
Anyway I feel like I should now run a marathon with this positive outcome
I still think there's room for improvement and time will tell
Whatever happens I will let you know
Keep fighting
Help others to fight
Never give up
I will admit I had and I was stupid for doing that and I've learnt from my mistakes and will take that to help me change mentally and hopefully feel a better person for it
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Here's something I wrote recently that I hope helps others