Sometimes its good to sit back and take stock of life

Sometimes I feel like im forgetting to appreciate things and remember what I have and how lucky I am

So sometimes I like to slow down step outside my own world and look in to see what ive got and remind myself how lucky I am.

Today is one of them days.

As I slept last night I thought about everything that happened to me recently.

Never miss a chance to see the way things are and be thankful for what you have

Right now I feel like life is on the up after recent developments

I recently had a hospital check up and everything just seemed perfect, dont get me wrong not perfect that I can be complacent I must keep pushing myself but the results were extremely good and even more surprising and have given me something that I really needed

A BOOST and a swift kick to remind me stop stop being stupid and never accept THATS IT

I have put on weight
My BMI is good

My sputum results looked good

AND most shocking of all

MY LUNG FUNCTION IMPROVED

It hasnt improved for over two years and infact had dropped quite badly but at the appointment it was the best its been in over TWO YEARS

Imagine my shock.

When I went there I went saying to myself the winters been tough so if my lung function hasnt dropped I would have been very happy

So when I saw my FEV1 had improved by 8% and my overall capacity by 10% I was stunned. I really had given up improving it and had just thought I would not let it slip anymore and maintain what I had.  I was chuffed to see it finally move.

Now I realised complacency will not be part of my health plan. Now im going to keep pushing and try to get back to my magic old grand number of FEV1 that I used to be and remember to forget less and improve more

I thought about it long and hard and realised its actually improved not because of drugs or trials or anything like that but its improved because ive improved myself through better consistency and trying harder to maintain my health for the winter actually made me improve my health.

Ive improved my drugs routine, my physio technique my Ineb routine and my weight has gone up and stayed consistent for over 4 months now.

I am absolutely chuffed with how the winter has gone for my health and has given me a huge boast to keep up everything that Ive changed for the good.

What else has happened in my life?

Ive got a new car. Its arrived and is stunning and has given me another boost and reminded me of how lucky I am to have the job I have and to keep wanting to improve.

My daughter as always is amazing and growing up fast :-) Shes nearly SIX. Where has the time gone?? And she is helping me to keep fit with stair races lol

Ive recently moved to a lovely new house and its officially our first house with my girlfriend who may I say is also amazing to me and has also been a reason ive improved myself by not letting me accept NO

So So many of my friends and Family have been supporting me with my future plans and my decision to want to do CF Trials. I cant thank you all enough and has really helped me to feel good about myself


And my last but by no means least piece of news.

Ive Been asked to be Godfather to one of my oldest bestest friends little Boy :-)
I received a lovely photo of Cohen with a little note saying

Will you be my GodFather??

How could I say no? So I of course said YES.

Im going to be a role model "oh dear" I thought haha but I really am truly thankful and priviledged to be asked so Thank You Amy and Tom. Amazing Amazing.

I have to admit that over the past few months I feel like ive become a bit insecure and have been fighting a few demons in my head. I still have plenty going on in my head and its maybe the reason ive been struggling to sleep

But I have at least now banished some of my demons and insecurities thatnks to so many good things and good people

I still have to improve but I wanted to say to all of you who have read this blog, supported me, wrote to me and sent me messages of support and good news.


THANK YOU

I couldnt do this without all of the good things im told and feel lucky to have what I have

Never rest on your morals

And I for one have realised.

If in another two years time ive improved thats another two years that Ive made things better

Thank You